Vulnerability

This is a quite personal piece.

I don't really know where to start but I really had to get this off my chest.

Loneliness.

A feeling of letting go of something that was so special to me. Not being able to talk to my closest friends and the feeling of being alone.

I know I am not alone. I have an amazing family, boyfriend and friends here to support me through everything, but the feeling I have been experiencing inside my body has been... so hard to deal with.

The feeling of being alone has been redirected to some of my closest connections that now, I feel like their thousands of miles away.

You know when you were with someone for so long and then all of a sudden you guys break up? That feeling of being lost, in pain and have trouble to get back on your feet?

You keep telling yourself you're okay and things will get better (and they do) but the cure is to simply wait?

Time heals all things, but it also has the power to make thing unbearable.

How do you deal with it?

It's funny because I never thought I would have to feel ''the breakup pain'' because I met the love of my life. However life, found a loophole to make me feel it in another context.

I think maybe it's because we need to feel those emotions every once in a while. It's a way to build yourself as a person, to make you stronger.

If we were always happy all the time and nothing ever affected you, it wouldn't be normal. You would be weak, because as soon as something would happen you would drown.

So life decides every once in a while to throw you a curve ball to test your strength.

I could of chosen to keep this blog secret, but on the contrary I wanted to share. Because everyone is human, and everyone goes through times like this. We tend to hide things, and keep them all to ourselves. Then that creates more pain and it's harder to deal with. As soon as you open up, you feel vulnerable. It's the moment when you feel the most vulnerable, where you start to heal. 

Alex