The circle of Comfort
It’s been a little over a year now that I have been officially diagnosed with a chronic depression. It’s funny, because I thought it would be over with and that I would be able to laugh about it, however I learned that sometimes it can take a little longer than others.
From struggling with finding the right medication, to having way too many sleepless nights to count, it really has been a hard struggle.
The thing is, a year ago I was probably spending 95% of my time in bed crying endlessly. Now, a year later I am able to get out of bed, make my bed and actually accomplish tasks in my personal and professional life.
When you struggle with mental illness, your brain tends to drift off into negativity and even tho everyone around you can simply tell you to feel better and happier, it’s not that easy. It’s actually quite annoying, trust me, if I could I would! The point I am trying to bring is, yes it’s hard to try to think more positively when your brain is wired to do the complete opposite, but being able to slowly train your thoughts to be more accepting lets yourself believe in yourself again.
For some it could take only a month, and for others it can take years. It all comes down to the fact that everyone is unique and different.
So a year has past, and a part of me is quite annoyed with myself being still stuck in this vicious circle. But then there’s the other part of me that can see a glimpse of light at the end of the tunnel, and that is seeing a little more improvement.
In a year I realized how many people struggle with mental health problems, and that we need to be more open and understanding about it. There are many organizations and support groups, however a huge lack of fundraising. The number of fundraisers I have seen plastered across social media about cancer,is HUGE! And then I look at ones for mental health and I saw maybe 2?! Now. I am not trying to say that cancer is not important because it is, but I do think there is a miss in inclusivity when it comes to fundraising.
For half the year, I wanted to figure out a way to open people up about the subject of mental health. After all, if one in five suffer from it, that means the need is there. For all those days where I felt worthless and alone, I was also thinking about all the other people who were going through the same thing and even worse, and it truly breaks my heart.
From there, I decided to open myself more about the situation I was living with. If I can use my social media accounts to open up about what I have been dealing with perhaps I can help inspire others to do so. I became transparent, and people started reaching out, thanking me for doing so, as it allowed them to understand more about the situation, and for the ones that have been feeling the same way to know they are not alone.
Now I have recently created a friendly support group on Facebook called The circle of comfort. The focus is to regroup people who live with mental health problems to find support with each other. It’s also a group for those who don’t suffer, but that want to help a friend or family member in need. A safe place to share, and talk about mental health.
My head is exploding with ideas, but at the moment I will continue to pursue my photography, and the support group. From there other projects and ideas will come to life. One thing that depression has taught me is to take my time.